This little breakdown has nothing to do really with what is going on in my life but it came to me while walking around lovely ring road, and it's not like my writing slate for these two weeks is ridiculous or anything.
Levels of Numbness:
1 (not very numb): When you are forced to get up at 7 AM or earlier to attend something you have no interest in attending. The walk through campus and any subsequent interaction with other humans will inevitably be a second slow, as the looming unhappiness at such an early hour is all your mind can really focus on... hazily at that.
2 When you run into some gorgeous or famous person you've been admiring from afar, and all of a sudden you have nothing to say.
3 When the teacher scans the room looking for someone to call on, and you have absolutely no idea what the question or possible answer is. Said teacher walks closer and closer, and you quickly look down at your desk to avert the inevitable eye contact.
4 When you check a test score or get an essay back expecting a half decent score or maybe not even expecting a decent score and you click that button, and the page refreshes, and staring right back at you is 76... out of 200. Your stomach also usually drops into the abyss at this point.
5 When you're performing a piano recital and the lights are all shining on you with a dark audience... and you forget what goes next. So you start again and quickly stumble to an ugly crash of notes. At this point everyone in the audience is glad that they are not you. You are also sweating profusely and red in the face. Yes, you have at this point truly lost sensation in the rest of your body, most of all your fingers.
That being said, my new keyboard is in. I'm excited, but apparently that is not enough. Mike Koo says I need to make love to this instrument. Aw Shucks...
In other news, I am interviewing Kevin Bland tomorrow and covering the UCI CSF basketball game on saturday that will be on Fox Sports West. Both are firsts and things I have been looking to do for quite a while now. Look for me on saturday night at 5 PM on media row courtside. I'll be wearing a bright shirt.
2 comments:
I love your picture.
What level of numbness was Smalls at when Benny's first fly ball was heading towards him? And then having to run it in to second base after he missed it? I'm guessing a 4.6
after that intro in your entry, i feel nervous fo you dawg. but i'll pray for you. just think of it as an opportunity to own this thing and not to embarrass yoself. i love your entries.
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