Note: what follows is the typical "i'm about to graduate and my future is so uncertain" post. Bear with me.
Coming into freshman year, I remember being on the pessimistic side about things. I don't even really remember why, but I do distinctly contrasting with Yeebs, who was a lot more optimistic all the time. Maybe it was because I was still not very excited about being at UCI, maybe because parental pressures had turned college into a time of pressure and worry... but they were some not so good times.
Now, I feel like I am generally regarded as the optimistic one. This is partially because my workplace almost requires it, for the sake of not being depressed and down all the time, but it also goes beyond that. This past Friday at Re:Act, Luke from YWAM Kona was kind enough to pray for me, and offered an interesting image - that of a bucking bronco. He said that many people don't see the hard work that I put into [fill in the blank], but that God sees it, and affirms that. He said that I had a higher threshold to stay on the bronco. Crazy stuff!
I used to dread graduating and the (at least) year of uncertainty that was to follow, but I tend now to think about it as an exciting exploration of opportunity. Life is at as big of a crossroads as it ever has been before, but there's something thrilling about that. Don't get me wrong... the disappointing rejections and (even worse) no-replies are sure to keep coming, but at the same time, I have this sense of trust that God will eventually lead me to where I'm supposed to be. And with that in mind, how can you not be optimistic. (insert brubaker voice: C'MON!)
So even with parental pressures picking back up, striking at my self-confidence and overall sense of worth, I will keep up an optimistic mindset. Not that I'm endorsing ignorance and obliviousness to what is out there, but everything will indeed be okay in the end.
3 comments:
You didn't think I wouldn't come stalk your blog after this afternoon, did you? :) Thank you, DGao, for always being dependable, strong and--yes!--optimistic, when so many of us are disheartened by the world. You'll find a place out there--we all will, even if it feels so overwhelming sometimes. I believe in you! :)
Remember that God is sovereign, and He works everything together for your good. There is always something to be optimistic in---the day that we will one day see Christ and be with Him. Seek first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added unto you. If you're genuinely seeking God, just remember that He loves you. Let God be your strength and your joy when your parents destroy your optimism.
cya soon, brahh
Indeed you are the optimistic one. I didn't really know you when you were less optimistic, so I guess I don't have much to compare.
God gives us a peace that we can only understand through Him. You've grown so much in the little time I've known you and I believe that God has blessed you with this feeling of optimism and excitement. I'm glad you can look forward to your future in that way. That's something that God is still forming in my heart. Thanks for leading the way! :)
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